I believe that when we pray, those prayers get answered. The difficulty comes sometimes in what form those answers take. Sometimes it's yes. Sometimes it's no. Sometimes it's not right now. I think the part where I get confused, is paying attention to when the answer is no. Sometimes I find myself structuring my prayers so that I really am only on the lookout for yes answers.
"Dear God, can you please help with this...Dear God, can you please give me this...Dear God, will you make this happen..." And so when I see these things that I've prayed earnestly about not happening, I figure God must be taking his sweet time and just hasn't gotten around to them yet. So I try to be patient and send some friendly reminders. Sometimes it takes quite some time for me to realize that He did answer me. The answer was no.
NO can be quite a hard pill to swallow. It just doesn't feel right. In reality, what it is is a reminder that we just don't always know enough to know what's best for us. In my very narrow-minded, tunneled-visioned view of life, I think I'm pretty adept at knowing what would be best for me, and I'd really like God to be onboard with that and get his blessings on my decisions. Totally backwards, I know. Luckily, God has caught on to me and doesn't let it roll that way. He tells me no over and over again, and when I still refuse to listen, he gives me the stiff arm when I try to do it anyway.
Hindsight is God's foresight. There are times, like today, when I finally get why I was having such a hard time getting God to answer my prayer. I wasn't paying attention to the answer He gave me. And now no makes total sense. I'm grateful for answered prayer.
**Obviously, this is not my normal type of blog post. It's more of a journal of sorts, but I don't actually have a journal so I wrote it down here instead.